My spiritual director is a Priest and a family friend and every time I talk with him (once a month) I never know what to say to him. He asks how I’m doing and I say “uh fine.” Then he says what have I been up to and he says “nothing much.” I just don’t see how talking about private stuff is good. Why would I want to talk about negative things because then I’d get emotional and I don’t like being emotional, thus I don’t share my problems with people.
It’s like going to the doctor and they have you fill out a sheet of any pains or mental issues that you have had recently. I just check ‘X’ for all ‘no’ so I don’t have to talk about anything and go down a rabbit hole. There’s some issues of mine I share to help other people and to help myself but there are others I just don’t want to confront because I know I’ll cry about it. I feel ashamed about my problems and don’t want to talk about them with him because I’ll seem weak (not talking about impurity struggles, they aren’t the problems I’m referring to ). Any advice? I have spiritual direction this Wednesday, so in a day basically