My ex has just told me he has a new girlfriend…someone who was supposed to be my friend (and listened to me spill my heart out and told me how we were meant for each other and loads of other lies and two faced stuff) and apparently they’ve been together for “a little while” whatever that means.
Every day since we split I have cried, I have prayed and prayed for God to either heal my heart and help me get over it or give me the strength to wait until we are supposed to be reunited.
Every day my love for this man has grown. I honestly felt like God was telling me one day we will be together again. We were perfect for each other.
He told me via facebook message the day after what should have been our 3rd anniversary together. They ruined my birthday because they both came out to help me celebrate but ignored me all night and were inseperable (which made me really suspect but everyone told me I was crazy and that neither of them would do it to me etc). They ruined what should have been 3 years and happy and now they will ruin Christmas because there is no way I will be happy in 5 days time.
I keep praying, and I feel like the stronger my faith gets and the more I pray they more God is punishing me. I am never going to stop loving this man and I will never ever be able to trust another person anymore. I have lost my boyfriend who was my best friend and I have now lost another friend. I have no idea who to trust anymore. I’m really wondering if God is actually listening to me or cares because at the moment I really feel like He doesn’t and that He will never help me