I’m starting a new school year at university. Initially I was looking forward to it, because last year, I went to vespers a few times a week that took place at a nearby Catholic church. I love the Liturgy of the Hours, and it was put on by the Catholic group on campus. What I loved most about it was that we were praying before the Tabernacle, so it was for me a really special time to spend with the Lord. Sometimes I’d feel so tired (not physically, but spiritually or emotionally) and visiting Him would always help so much. it’s what I looked forward to the most.
Yesterday, I found out that this would no longer be possible as we got a new priest at the church, and he is concerned about security and such. I understand his concerns and I’m not criticizing his decision at all. We’ll still have Vespers, we’ll just use another place…
but I know that I’ll miss visiting Our Lord so much. I found out that the church has Adoration every Friday, which is awesome, but I have class during that time
so it seems like the only time I’d be able to visit Jesus is on Sunday. During the week, the church will be closed except for morning Mass, and I don’t know if I’ll be able to get there for 8:15 am, cause I live far from the university, and I need to get rides to the bus stop but I don’t want to have to ask for rides so early.
to make this long story short lol…
what do you do when you really want to visit Our Lord but you’re unable to? what if you have the time, in the evenings, but the church is closed? Do you just stand there by the church on the steps wishing you were inside haha… I actually know some Saints did that.
I’m not looking forward to this year at all now, cause I’m being faced with some difficulties at the moment, and the thing that helps me the most is spending some time with Our Lord… yesterday I wanted so much to go and visit Him, but I don’t have a way to do this. It’s like a type of spiritual martyrdom lol. I’ll still keep on praying anyways though, especially the Rosary I’m glad we can pray anywhere! But I don’t know how I’ll make it through this year, cause I’m going through some trials and visiting the church brought me so much strength before. In fact, I don’t think I could have persevered in my conversion (to Catholicism) without it.
But what do you do in such situations? do you make an act of spiritual communion? …sometimes I wish I could just live in a church lol!