After reading the forums for quite a few months now, I have got many new insights and my faith becomes stronger as I iron out my doubts about the my religion.
Well a bit about myself; I have been raised catholic starting from baptism all the way up to marriage. During my late teens I lost my faith and was most inclined to atheist ideals, so I lost faith in God or didn’t care much about it.
I have always been a truth seeker, so in my 20s I accidently bought the wrong book. Might as well start reading it as bookshop was closed. That book changed everything for me about God (The Road Less Traveled by M Scott peck).He showed me a different way to look at the world I had never known, its an amazing book. From then on I was a theist, but still had my doubt of course but closer to God.
Late 20s things aren’t going so well I’m having a hard to in my life so started reading in search for God. Was nowhere near catholics or similar religions. Started with buddism convincing at first did’nt work well. Then read up for Islam even worse wasn’t working.
Ended up with christianity read up on The third Jesus, was up the wall very interesting, searched for some non catholic websites some were very good some different. In between to test my faith read ’ The god delusion’. What a load of garbage, I thought; my faith was even stronger made me study The Bible. Loads of things I didn’t understand so turned to my non-catholics christians, it was too literal for me 'sola scriptura didn’t add up for me though somewhat helpful. And last this forums made me understand even more made much more sense to me 2000 years still going strong.
Now I don’t go to church I have theory but no practice. Where do I start I feel embarrassed going to church don’t know why. I have a relationship with God and he is everywhere whats the point. I pray but not sure why, He knows what I am thinking. Why should He make my prayers come true and not other people? seems unfair, I am just one for billions of people who probably need more help than me.
I’m stuck please help!