Sorry but thats how Im feeling right now, Im sure it will pass :o
Thank you very much, CN, for this hopeful news! I will be keeping you in prayer and do keep us updated on how things are unfolding. The stuff you read in these forums is not necessarily correct Catholic teaching. One of the things I love about Catholicism is our theology, which is very compassionate, understanding and generous - reflecting God’s Love and Mercy…and we dont always live this out for sure, nor procalim it - yet the theology stands and transcends, is superior to, our failures.
What you are experiencing is nothing new in theTheology of Spirituality…there have been times when I can feel like I want to chuck it all in and I’ll go through a patch of total repugnance and questionings that could rapidly become doubt if I let it…and apparently we have a nun-saint (I have forgotten her name - and I wish I could recall it and should make a note of these things) who went through a patch of such repugnance she wanted to churck her Office Book out the nearest window. So feel in good company - the unknown saint, I mean.
Over and above that, I think you have hit a valid point. We claim to have Good News and if you go by our dispositions and attitudes at times, one can scratch one’s head indeed as to where “Good News, huh?” This points to another point of theology…The Church as it is and limited and affected through our faulted humanity and as it will be at the end of time as Fulfilled in Christ.
And at this point, I fear that I am just as lacking in a joyous mode which is the central point of your thread subject.:o For as often as one may try there are probably three failures somewhere.
Praying that your current disposition will pass…I know it is a rough and unpleasant ride while aware no person can really stand in another’s shoes.
Blessings…and thank you so much for that final sentence that was very kind and thoughtful, instilling hope in us…Barb:)
Have you heard about the Islamic person that goes to Heaven and St. Peter is showing him around Heaven. They seem to walk for miles past a very high wall and in the end the Islamic man turns to Peter:
“What’s the high wall, Peter?”
"Ssshhhhh…we must be quiet…its for the Catholics who think they are the only one’s up here"http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_8_11.gif
Edit:…something just occurred to me that I can’t resist adding : and if these good ‘catholics’ knew that non Catholics were in Heaven, they would probably protest vehemently and threaten to leave until Heaven was cleaned up of hereticshttp://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_1_219.gif