Dear Fellow Bloggers,
I have been thinking of becoming a nun off and on since I was 15 years old, now I'm 17 and a junior in highschool. The first time it occured to me, to maybe, become a nun was when I was 9 years old; however this thought at that age only occured for about a month or two. I also at that age, remember how I use to practice evangelizing people, by telling my dog and rabbit, the bible stories about who Jesus is and how aweome he is. I also remember, that even at the age of just 3 years old, I had a devotion to God, helping the poor, and wanting to become a saint, because I remember how I would look up to my favorite saint at that time, St. Francis of Assis, and would want to be just like him. I've prayed off and on for God to show me if I'm called to be a nun or not, by him strengthing his own will and lessoning my own. This prayer seems to be working, because I seem to be, almost falling in love with the Catholic Church and just crave to have more knowledge and the wanting to learn how to help people in their times of need and pain. I just wish I could wrap all the people in pain and in their times of need: spiritually, physically, a mentally; up and giving them a big hug and tell them it'll all be okay, like a mother would to her small child when it was hurting. However, I cannot do this. I have so much wisdom or knowlegde it seems, that it's difficult to find a way to spread it throughout the world, so everyone an anyone can learn from it.
I think I'm being called to becme a nun, but before I go to be a nun I want to get a degree in nursing and maybe a minor degree in theology. I get frustrated when I've been researching lately because I find so many different convents I could be in. The ones I find the most interesting are the, Missionaries of Charity, and an active convent in Jamaica, that just opened its courters to women too. The problem that I have with going to the missionaries of charity is I'm not sure if I could do the work, or if I'm good enough for it. Plus when I think of going there, I feel nervous and excited to help the people in this world, but I feel like somethings missing there. I look back, and then realize, I know, that they help people physically, but do they help people spiritually too. An example of this, is: A young man is ill physically and in the house for the dyeing, but not only needs help physically, but also needs, deep help spiritually, would they teach him about how God loves you and such stuff like that, without converting him into Christianity directly and would they pray with him, or would they just speak about God in his religion and not teach him any difference or would they just pray with him and ask to comfort him, just by being there for him?
I also wish there was a nuns order, where nuns are all preachers as in evangalization, teachers as in teaching the children of the tomorrow, and also help the poor, and maybe even going to help at the local prisons. If someone or anyone knows of or finds a place like this, please share the name of the order or a link to it.
(PS. prayers are need for me, to further go on with my vocation or passion, and for me to follow God's will and to find my purpose in life, without fustration, but instead with patients.)[BIBLEDRB][/BIBLEDRB]
Thanks for Reading this and getting this far, Love, Rebekah Arrigo