I am a non-practicing Catholic searching for advice. I was raised Catholic by parents who are very active in their church (dad’s in the KofC and an usher; mom taught CCD) and I received the Sacraments including Matrimony. My 2 children (6 and 4) are baptized Catholic. However, over the past 15 years I have fallen away from the church. Growing up I went to mass and CCD because I “had” to. I didn’t really feel any strong connection which is probably why as an adult I haven’t been practicing. I returned occasionally around the time of my marriage and the baptisms of my children. A year ago, I felt a strong need to have God and Jesus in my life again. I’ve had a difficult time returning to the Catholic church because I don’t agree with some of the Church’s teachings (birth control, homosexuality, sacrament of Reconciliation to name a few). I started attending a protestant church where my children attend Sunday school.
I should mention dh is Catholic, but wasn’t raised in a very religious home. He had to make his confirmation before we could get married. Because of that, he wants our children to receive the Catholic sacraments.
I also have a hard time “permanently” leaving. Once a Catholic, always a Catholic! I can’t imagine my children NOT receiving the sacraments.
Many of my friends and peers are in a similar situation as me except they don’t have a problem with disagreeing with church teachings. They continue to receive communion without confession. It sometimes seems as though a good portion of “practicing” Catholics don’t practice all the church teaches.
I’m at a crossroads. My oldest should be starting Faith Formation this year. At our local parish, he is home-schooled for the first 2 years. Do I continue with a protestant faith where I feel accepted or return to the Catholic church even if I don’t believe 100%?
I thank you for reading.