I often play video games. For the most part, they are fun. However, since about when I first started playing First Person Shooters (I really started late 2008. They are also one of my favorite genres), sometime around 2009-2010 I started worrying pointlessly about my KDR (Kills to Deaths ratio). Nowadays I don’t want to worry about KDR and just want to have fun. I can’t seem to get rid of the pointless worrying over a useless stat.
This brings me to my point: When I do poorly in games I get stressed out and a bit grumpy. I sometimes whine about how bad I am doing in the game. Other times I just say things I don’t really mean such as “(insert F word here) my aim”, or “(insert F word here) my life”. Again, I don’t really mean these things, I just post them in the in game chat when I am getting mad. I almost feel like I have no choice before I do it. I just let the emotions take control of my keyboard.
I am not so sure of whether this is moral or not. It doesn’t seem “Very Bad” (aka, Grave Matter) to me (It’s just some pointless in game text chat that people often use to spam pointless and random faces and text.) I don’t really mean what I say, I am just letting my feelings out instead of building up anger inside, thus I suppose that I lack the “intent” behind the words. I am not totally sure whether it is a sin so that would mean that I lack full knowledge. Thus, I feel this is only at most venial, but I could be wrong. This is something that confuses the heck out of me.
In before people say I’m a loony.