First of all, I hope this is in the right forum. If not, mods, please move it.
Anyway, lately I have been struggling with my faith. I am finding fewer and fewer reasons to be a practicing Catholic. I was confirmed as a Catholic convert just over 3 years ago. Anyway, what are some reasons that I should go back to being a faithful and devout practicing Catholic? :shrug:
I honestly don’t really know in what ways I am struggling with my faith. I do know that I am even having a hard time believing in God at this point in my life. I’m not sure why though. Also, all the rules of Catholicism seem to be encumbering me. I want to have fun. Like the rule about no sex before marriage. Well, I want to be able to have sex before marriage without being condemned to Hell or some other place of torture.
Were you on fire for the Catholic faith after you converted? Why has that changed? The rules? The rules apply whether you believe them or not. The rules are God’s rules and the Church, among other things, helps us obey and apply them.
Would you rather spend eternity with God or have “fun” while on your relatively short journey on earth? I encourage you to spend some time in prayer thinking about that…really try to have your heart open for God’s answer. In front of the Blessed Sacrament is my favorite place to pray when I really need to listen.
Tell God your problems. Tell Him why it’s hard. He can take it and can lead you to some truly awesome answers if you let Him.
Also, would it help to think of all the wonderful things the Church provides? Confession, The Eucharist…
First off, no one can say that you are saved or condemned except for God alone. However, there are rules that the Catholic Church has set forth based on reason, logic, and love. And while this may seem a contradiction, these rules are meant to make your life more fulfilling, not to tie you down in misery.
The rules and consequences do not go away because you turn a blind eye to them. Do you think, at the time of eternal judgment, you’ll be able to say, “Well, since I wasn’t practicing my faith at the time the rules didn’t apply to me.”? It’s like driving down the wrong side of the highway with your eyes closed thinking that since you don’t see the oncoming cars, they do not exist.
We all want to have a fun and comfortable life. Unfortunately, life isn’t about having the license to do whatever we want regardless of the consequences. Life is about making choices and, at times, sacrifices. As much as we sometimes wish it were otherwise, those are the rules of the games. The good news is that when we make the wrong choices, God is always looking to take us back. All we have to do is ask sincerely for His mercy.
We all have our struggles. I’ll pray for you that you’ll find the strength to make it through yours.
Holly, please know that I don’t mean this question in a sarcastic or derogatory manner: are you taking your medication? I ask this because not too long ago you said you were off your meds and questioned whether you should go back on them. Your present struggle could be symptomatic of not taking them; or it could be that the difficulties you have spoken of on other threads have brought this confusion and temptation to you. Whatever is the case, you are in my prayer. Do not give up the good fight for Christ in your life.
I have been a Christian for 12 years, and I am having the same problem you are having right now. I was training to be an apologist, and the more I read the more I am having a hard time that God even exists at all. I wish God would help me, so much, but I can never get an answer. Like I said, I feel the same you do about the existence of God. Not that I want to sin and avoid consequences, just that, I don’t know anymore. I stay very sad most of the time, because my whole world is crashing in on me with this. I want to believe so bad, but I am not seeing any evidence whatsoever to believe.
I hope you’ve received some good advice on how to get your faith strong again. As others have said, just about everyone goes through the same thing at least once in their life. I pray that you don’t give up on your faith. I do believe that in time, you will find the answers. God does love you and wants the best for you. Please let me know how you are doing down the road, okay?
This a question you need to take to your priest or somone you trust from your parish at least.
Doubts and darkness come to all one time or another. May I suggest you start a novena to the Blessed Teresa of Calcutta and attend mass on her fest day next week on the 5th of September, even if you have doubts, she had many dark days, yet with faith kept living for God and doing HIs work.