This morning in mass, I did not receive communion because I missed mass last week and have not been to confession yet. Instead, I went up to receive a blessing (which I am now reading online is not part of the liturgy and should not be done), but anyway as I walked up to the deacon, I crossed my arms across my chest and bowed my head for the blessing. As the deacon began the blessing, he placed his hand under my chin and forced my face up to look him in the eye as he said the blessing. When he finished the blessing, he said, “Okay?” As if he was asking me if I understood. I replied, “okay.” and went back to my seat. I was just wondering if anyone knows why he may have done this? I don’t know if maybe he was trying to show me that I should not be ashamed, or if he was trying to be very serious about the matter. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it all day!