Dear Nelka, humility and humbleness is the basis of ALL virtue. In modern parlance that can be translated as “self-examination” or “introspection”. You seem to have these virtues in spades. So, you are on the right path!
Pride, on the other hand, was the original sin of Lucifer, and the basis of most (all?) sin. You do not have this.
If someone is prideful, I don’t care how talented they may be, it’s all built on a bad foundation.
You, Nelka, have a very solid foundation. Cheer up!