So after another night out and getting rejected by girls, i finally learned something about myself. God wants nothing to do with me. I have alot of things i want in life but when it comes to getting a girlfriend (the thing i want most), he has never been there to help… ever
Im 21, my last gf was 7 years ago who left me for another guy, and ive spent the last 7 years either failing with or being rejected by girls. Ive been on at most a 2nd date with a girl who all of a sudden wanted nothing to do with me (like all the others). There is a girl at the moment at my work who i have insanely strong feelings for but she is moving 9 hours away and has a boyfriend. Were perfect for each other and have become really close friends and i believe even if she were single, the fact that she is 5 years older than me is a problem. She wants to stay in contact when she leaves.
So im trying to get over her and deal with the fact im always getting rejected, which is hard. I just dont really know what to do, obviously clubs is not the way to go for me. Ive tried dating websites and hardly get any replies, there is no one at my work who is single. Where else do i look?? and ive failed that many times that im expecting to be rejected and not bothering anymore.
All i want… all i have ever wanted is a Girlfriend. And to those of you who say im putting too much emphasis on wanting one i say this. You spend 7 years of being lonley and rejected and try and see how easy it is to all of a sudden take your mind off of wanting one.
It really kills me to see the whole world with someone and me being this lonley loser mainly because i am a good person. I always try and do whats best for other people sometimes putting myself at a disadvantage. It feels as if the only thing god has ever helped me with is getting my job as a police officer and i honestly believe he has done that purely so it can benefit others. Which is fine and i dont mind that, but it would be nice for some help from him once and a while or at least to have someone to help me.
I honestly feel like God wants nothing to do with me. He is letting these things happen without the slightest hint of help. And to those of you who say god has a plan, give it time blah blah. You will only push me further away from god because in his plan somewhere you would think he could give me at least a little bit of a break!!!