I’m an 18 year old Catholic High Schooler and I struggle with same sex attraction. I’ve always been this way. I have never had the ability to think of a woman in any sort of sexual way; but men on the other hand are a much different story.
I’ve visited the Courage website and other forms of self-help programs for this and all of them sort of bounce around the question: Why make me gay?
Sex is an very important part of human life and is given to every human being as a gift. So why give a gift that is wrong to use? It would be like me giving candy to a 3 year old on Halloween and saying he isn’t allowed to eat it even though it is his now. I’m not trying to justify homosexuality in any sort of way, and I have been Catholic all my life and believe it is the Truth; but it does not answer this question. Yes, I realize I am loved no matter what I do or who I am and that God does not make mistakes. In saying that though, God is very efficient and does NOT make mistakes: so why make someone gay? Or why give someone who was gay the standard inclination towards sex? It’s not out of concupiscence, since it cannot physically be helped and since it is not a sin to have these attractions.
I’m just looking for answers and have no where else to turn but here. Hopefully I can understand more about why I am made the way I am instead of being told I am disordered and that I need to “turn straight or go to Hell” (trust me if it were possible I would have found a way by now)