that when it comes to my commission sales job,
praying for Saintly and Divine assistance to make the money I NEED
(NOT “want”), that I make even LESS and LESS after all these prayers???
I don’t understand this at all.
It’s very, very, very frustrating.
I have a draw-vs-commission job which, after 2-1/2 hellish years of unemployment,
I am very grateful to God for.
But my economic situation is precarious. I NEED a take home pay
of between $400 and $500 a week. I NEED that, not merely want that.
So I pray. Saints. Novenas. Rosaries. Chaplets. You name it, I do it, over and over and over again. And it seems the more I pray the worse it gets. I am averaging $300 to $330 a week take home. I realize other people have it even more horrendous than I by far
((and so did I for 2-1/2 years)), but I too have many expenses and elderly parents to help care for. Is THIS temporal punishments for forgiven sins? This?? Driving me literally insane with (justified) worry???
And to top it off, now they have only given me a measly 32 hours for next week!!!
I am ready to just start breaking EVERYTHING in the house, in the building, smashing things, etc., cuz I pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and things get worse. Of course, I am not LITERALLY going to smash things or tear up my bibles and prayer books, but at this moment, I really FEEL LIKE doing that.
I am ready, WAY PAST READY, to give up praying for help on this job.
To top it off, they gave me for next week a measly 32 hours. I make minimum wage plus commission. While I’m in the stockroom getting a $40 item for a customer,
my co-workers have customers walk up to them and buy $4000 of stuff in one pop.
I don’t begrudge them their income, but why does this keep happening?
My co-workers have often expressed that they don’t even believe in Christ,
yet they are making scads more than I am. Am I praying wrong?
Am I not using the right “formulas”???
I am ready, WAY PAST READY, to just do it all IN THE FLESH. My coworkers who are making the GOOD incomes, aren’t praying for help AT ALL,not one bit, and they are getting all the good sales. I pray and pray nonstop, all day long, for help in getting the right customers and making the amount I need, and nothing happens.
My co-workers don’t go to church, don’t pray, don’t even believe in Jesus, don’t pray for help making sales, and they are making SCADS of money, some of them.
They get the customers who want $500 cookware sets and $1200 coffeemakers.
I tend to get the ones who talk my ears off for a half hour or more asking me questions, and then buy a $12 spatula.
I don’t mean to gripe, darn it, but I need to make a live-able LIVING.
I have bills and I have elderly parents. This is very, very, very very frustrating.
And it is extremely frustrating AND DISHEARTENING, let me stress DISHEARTENING, to pray like mad, all day long, for divine assistance, and make next to nothing, and then see folks who don’t even believe in God or pray for help (and even one who is downright EVIL), making thousands of dollars a day in sales over and above their required draw and getting a big weekly paycheck.
What I WANT is another office job, like I had for 22 years. But there are none available to me. I apply and apply, and don’t even get an email back even acknowledging the application.
I’m sorry for venting, but I am on the verge of financial despair.
I, myself, am seriously considering no longer praying for help ON THE JOB,
because maybe MY prayers are irritating God and Saint Jude and Saint Whoever.
But you guys on CAF are GOOD Catholics.
Would you please pray for me for God to help me succeed on this job?
I am at my wit’s end. I am BEYOND being at my wit’s end over this. WAY BEYOND.
I know I deserve to be punished for my many past sins, but seriously,
being prevented from making the living I need??? I don’t mean to murmur against
God, but I NEED help on this job,and when I do the praying, things only seem to get worse the more praying I do. Please help me. God love all of you.