This is becoming a serious problem regarding my faith; It seems that after Padre Pio and the other mystics died out, God completely stopped miraculously healing all people. For reference, some people on here have probably seen my prior posts–but I have been afflicted with a non-fatal (this is important) condition that has been with me for almost the entire year. My suffering is becoming overwhelming, and no matter what I’ve tried, God hasn’t healed me. Literally, I’ve done everything; Praying to each member of the Trinity, asking (all) of the Saints to pray for me (as well as a few specific ones), asking Jesus himself to pray for me, fasting, begging, crying, quoting scripture… I even tried putting Holy Water on the affected area, all to no avail. I’ve also asked the others on here to pray for me, and pray they did–all to no avail.
The worst part is that, unlike serious ailments like Cancer, I don’t get to die and have peace. I may have this for the rest of my life. Additionally, this isn’t anything spectacular like the stigmata… I don’t feel any intimacy with God through this affliction, only sadness, which matured and solidified into sheer anger.
Sometimes I feel like God is mocking me; It’s like He’d sooner grant my Birthday requests and give me Money of all things (both of which He’s done) before healing me. God would put a few extra dollars in my pocket before Healing me? In my youth, my Parents used to tell me that I claimed God “spared” my life, and that I used to talk to something as a toddler, but it seems that after these two events, God suddenly disappeared from my life… And then began cursing me (current ailment, among others). Jesus said that anything we asked in His name [to glorify the Father], He’d do it https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John%2014:13-14, and I told Jesus that I’d give a testimony of my Healing if He healed me (in addition to asking in His name), and yet here I am, still afflicted. A promise broken. Now the only Bible verses I can think of are Matthew 27:46 and Mark 15:34.
What’s even worse, is that The Devil sooner heals people than God for some reason. Lucifer. Both Magdelena de la Cruz and John Ramirez, two former Satanists–were “granted” immense spiritual powers. The former could completely heal others (including herself), and the other was granted other spiritual powers, such as Astral Projection, Curse Distributing, Death Distributing (unless God expressly forbade it, which was touched on). How come Lucifer heals people but Christ doesn’t? Also note that these healings weren’t illusions, as even after She rejected Satan and converted to Christianity, Magdelena’s wounds didn’t reopen, nor did She suffer any repercussions from Her practices. John lost his AP, CP, and DD, but gained, in an instant–a closer relationship than God (particularly Christ Jesus) as a non-Catholic than most Catholics will ever have in their lifetimes.