[quote=Everstruggling]My problem is when people tell me that God is loving,
Do you accept the historical reality of Christ’s existence, and further, or His crucifixion? That seems to be the ‘crux’ (no pun intended) of his love.
or that God is involved in my life.
Grace is invisible and unquantifiable. I’m not sure how to prove that God’s grace is really there.
I’ve never experienced God in my life at all. I’ve experienced countless **people **telling me that God is involved, but not God.
If by this you mean, God hasn’t send his hand down through the clouds and spoken to you in a booming voice, then perhaps, yes, God hasn’t told you. And I don’t mean this in a snide, sarcastic sense. At one point I would have been satisfied with nothing less than God’s overt proclamation of his existence to me. After a point I realized, I’m so grasping for concrete proof of His existence, that even if He did send his voice from the clouds and His hand from the heavens, that I wouldn’t believe, that I’d write it off as a hallucination. Ask yourself: if God is telling me that He is involved, am I listening? And if I am listening, am I predisposed properly to listen?
I don’t know if you read Mere Christianity, C.S. Lewis, but he uses a lovely analogy. We examine the physical world with telescopes and other such instruments, and we examine and see God with our whole being. And, he says, just as a dirty mirror does not reflect the light shining on it, so too when our being is not properly predisposed, we are unable to see God distinctly and clearly. To translate this to the question of seeing God’s love, are you predisposed to see Him?
If God is infinite, if God is all-powerful. Could he not once, just once, come down and tell me he’s here.
Certainly He could. Would he?
Or perhaps take this from another angle. He already did, and look what happened, the people up and crucified him.
That he knows what I’m going through? I mean he can right? Wouldn’t take any time at all, but he doesn’t. The idea that he exists, that he could do something like that, and that he won’t is so annoying, so hurtful, so blatently cruel, that I choose not to believe.
My problems with God derive more from the angle of ‘does God exist,’ rather than the ‘is God loving,’ but let me see if I can help at all.
We try to fit our circular God into our square human boxes. We want Him to act like we do. Anthropomophizing God can be helpful in some instances, but fatal in others. The question is, should we expect Him to act the way we expect human beings to act? I don’t think so.
It’s so easy to chase into the ‘why doesn’t God,’ game. Because we believe God is omnipotent, we can really say ‘why doesn’t God,’ do almost anything? Well, He doesn’t, and I can’t explain it any better than most of us try to. Couldn’t God save us all, no strings attached, no having to not sin, etc… and couldn’t he do it just as quick as a flash without having to have us live proper Christian lives? I suppose, but he doesn’t.
The idea that God is loving, we draw from what we know of God through Christ. A God that would choose to lower Himself, and suffer (and my answer to ‘that he knows what I’m going through,’ if you do believe in Christ, is answered here) for the sake of man, well, I think that’s love. And I think we channel the suffering we experience and consecrate it to Christ’s suffering. And that’s the mystery that Christians have, where suffering becomes redemptive.