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As someone who suffered from pretty severe scrupulosity for a long time, and is still struggling with it (although it has definitely gotten better), I have learned a few things that can perhaps answer your question.
Scrupulosity is very often connected with obsessive-compulsive disorder (which I also deal with--big surprise!), which is when a person obsesses over and worries about very little actions or details that have no importance. For example, when I was very young, I used to treat my two hands as if they had feelings. Because I'm right-handed, I felt that my left hand was being ignored; I would then use my left hand to open drawers, sweep the floor, etc., so that it would have an equal amount of attention as my right hand. This was something I obsessed over constantly--if I didn't "even out" my hands, I felt like I had omitted an action of paramount importance.
Scrupulosity is very similar. A scrupulous person is convinced that certain actions, which have no sin attached to them whatsoever, are actually terrible mortal sins. Often they will be plagued by horribly blasphemous or impure thoughts, and will beat themselves up trying to determine whether or not they consented to these thoughts. When my scrupulosity was especially bad, I was sure that various completely innocent actions would cause me to have impure thoughts. This got so extreme that I actually locked myself in my bathroom, afraid to look at or listen to or do anything, because I thought it would cause me to sin.
I also learned was that it was not my fault that I was scrupulous--heaven knows I didn't want to be that way. So many people tried to tell me, "It's just mind over matter--get over it! Scrupulosity is displeasing to God, so you'd better fix this quickly." Although they were well-intentioned, they honestly had no idea what they were talking about. This is a true suffering--like suffering from a painful illness--and it is no more displeasing to God than physical suffering. Often when a person is scrupulous, they honestly believe that they are doing the right thing, and although this condition can be terribly debilitating, God sees their efforts. I know that it pains Him so much when I go in circles with this problem, beating myself up again and again; but He is constantly trying to get me to trust totally in Him and get away from myself.
Hope this answered your question!
Wow! Does this mean I have scrupulosity aswell? I seem to have the exact same symptoms. The exact same as you described here. I feel that if I move to the right too much than the left, my family will die, or something like that. I know it sounds stupid but its really serious and It's hard for me to ever really feel like Im doing the right thing. Peace, Thomas.