I am having trouble with an understanding of an action as sinful, despite my pastor telling me it is and am hoping for a better understanding of why I am sinful. My husband and I are the singers for our church and I am also an organist. We sing at every single weekend, funeral, nuptial, and special Mass. However, I am two days from my due date, cannot sleep or think, and consequently, my musical ability has gone sharply downhill (not being able to breathe fully due to the position of the baby - healthy, just inconvenient - is not helping either). Next weekend is our celebration of First Communion for our second and third graders and the weekend following is our celebration of Confirmation for our seventh and eighth graders (our three parishes are too small to have this more than once every two years).
My pastor, who really wants things to be perfect when the bishop shows, says that for my husband and I to miss singing at these Masses (which we’d only do if the baby shows up inconveniently timed) or to change the music from the intense choral pieces he wants to something more appropriate for two very tired voices (we still haven’t fully recovered from Holy Week or the funerals last week) - or one voice if I’m in the hospital with the baby and my husband is covering a Mass alone - would be sinful. As the priest, I know I must accept what he says as sinful, but as an engineer, I need a why to do anything and he is far too cranky to ask. So really, why?