No you didn’t misunderstand me, I only shared one element of the torures of hell that scare me the most.
Also, remember once in hell, you are cut off completely from communion with God, if you begged for mercy, He would hear you but he would reply
Matthew 25:12 But he replied, ‘I tell you the truth, I don’t know you.’
Here are some excerpts from some good reading on the subject of hell.
Here is a an excerpt from here as well. From rosary-center.org/ll44n6.htm
**The Pain of Loss: **
St. Augustine wrote centuries ago, “Our heart is made for Thee, O God, and it will be restless until it rests in Thee.” Only God can fill all the yearnings of the human heart. In this life man is often unaware of the cause of his restlessness, and at times will seek to fill the vacuum in his heart with passing satisfactions, even satisfactions forbidden by God. If one continues to seek forbidden satisfactions, it can lead to an exclusive love of self that involves an habitual disregard of God. If such an individual ends his life clinging to that choice, that is, unrepentant, his will is fixed eternally in that choice - an eternal separation from God.
The pain of loss depends on the realization of the value of the thing lost. And in the life beyond the grave, the lost souls - no longer hampered by union with the body - see with a clearness unknown in this life the true value of things. They will have an immeasurably greater realization of what God is than they were capable of while on earth. Locked in forever in the choice they have made, they are impelled by their very being to reach out for God, but they are imprisoned by their own selfishness. Their frustrating lot brings untold anguish and remorse, but not repentance, for they are no longer capable of any change of mind or heart. In the very depth of their being they are torn apart by the struggle within.
The human soul was created for the perfect enjoyment of the Beatific Vision of the Divine Trinity. Just as the enjoyment of the “face to face” vision of God constitutes a beatitude beyond anything we can imagine in this life, so the eternal loss of it constitutes a “pain of loss” beyond anything we can conceive in this life. For all eternity the damned have to live with the horrible choice of self in preference to God, the choice of earthly satisfactions (which now only disgust and torment) in preference to the possession of Him who is infinite GOOD, infinite LOVE, infinite TRUTH, infinite BEAUTY.
As the eye is made for light, so the mind is made for truth, and the will is made to love. Thus souls in hell, confirmed in hatred of God and deprived of the vision of God, will never attain the end to which they must tend by force of their very nature. Their existence is one of neverending frustration, an eternal unsatisfied craving of their whole being. The utter void of these souls, made for the enjoyment of infinite truth and infinite goodness, causes untold anguish.
Their consciousness of having by their own deliberate folly forfeited the greatest blessings for transitory and delusive pleasures humiliates and pains them beyond measure. Their desire for happiness inherent in their very nature, wholly unsatisfied and no longer able to find any compensation in creature-satisfactions for their loss of God, renders them totally and perpetually in a state of incompleteness and frustration.
They were called to be “children of light” (Eph. 5:9), but have been cast into “exterior darkness” (Mt. 8:12). They clearly see what their true end should have been, and their unclouded intellect makes the thought of God a maddening mystery to them, a torment that does not go away.
During the course of their earthly life-span no failure was final, because there was always another chance, at least in regards to repentance for one’s mistakes. But for those in hell, their life’s failure is final without any hope of another chance, or of regaining what was lost. They hate and curse God as the inflictor of punishment, they hate the Blessed for having what they lack, they hate themselves for choosing a way of life that led to this end. They would gladly accept annihilation as an escape from their torments, but they know there is no escape. Their lot is utter despair.
Nothing supernatural remains in hell, except the marks of baptism, confirmation and the priesthood deeply imprinted in the soul. These bring the constant and bitter memory of graces once received, to the increase of their remorse and the sense of greatness of what was lost. And while all the souls of the damned suffer the “pain of loss”, that punishment will not be equal for all, for all did not equally reject God during their time of trial.