I saw 2 chiropractors today.
Both could not help me. Both said to go to a teaching hospital in a big city to see a neurosurgeon.
Both said I need surgery.
I cannot tell you how many doctors i have seen.
After all this prayer I now am starting to doubt both God’s love for me and even His existence
And yet I feel so guilty feeling so
For years i taught handicapped children
and now i have become handicapped
but i do not want to be
becoming permanently disabled + physicaly and mentally __in thespan of a few months makes me wonder if i am being punished
anyway tomorrow i am supposed to go to philly to neurosurgeon and the er then maybe a psychological hospital
i just do not know what to do any more
please pray for me for tonight?morning decision __ good night sleep
i promisetopray fervently forall who pray for me