I worry about my relationship with my (long-distance) girlfriend.
We've only been together in person three times, but all of those occasions have been for entire weekends. I love being with her. There exists a connection between us that I can't possibly explain, but we have entire conversations by just looking into one another's eyes and there are moments of long, comfortable silence between us. We have fun when we're together, we talk, we laugh, and I'm quite positively crazy for her.
When we go our separate ways, however, that's when the negative thoughts kick in. I mostly think negative thoughts because I'm worried about the future. You see, she's jobless and not the most educated or professional individual I could be with. She says she wants to work, but I think between combination of lack of resources and lack of momentum finding a job isn't high on her list of things to do. I won't even consider marrying her unless she gets a job and starts making some income because, as a result of my own stretched, poor finances, I don't know how we could make it on a single income. We just couldn't.
So, while I pray that God directs this relationship according to his will, I'm worried. I start thinking about these things and even though I try my best to rend all things to God, I can't help but think I should break up with her and call the whole thing off because there's just no way things will ever work out. I feel hopeless when I think about our future together. And yet, I think I may love her. She gives me so much in this life that I've never had before and she makes me smile.