Note: This question is very sexual and perhaps graphic in nature, please only those who are married or have scientific knowledge about such matters read
I will be married to my fiance in a few months. We are both very excited about starting a family, but I have a concern. Early in high school I became addicted to pornography. It was only by God’s grace and the help of my priest that I quit and have been free since then. I have remained a virgin physically, but my mind is not.
My problem has been since then I have a problem getting erection around my fiance. We have drawn firm boundaries when it comes to physical affection so as to remain pure for the marriage bed, stopping at extended periods of kissing, sometimes which can last several hours. When we are doing this, I feel like this should be enough for me to get an erection as a natural physical response to this, and it worries me that I am having problems. Sometimes I am able to get a full erection, but oftentimes I notice I am not fully erect. While I think some of this may be because of the length of our kissing (I am not expecting to be able to maintain a full erection for several hours obviously) I am worried for when we are actually married at my inability to satisfy her. I have read advice that one should just think of the scenes in order to get aroused but I refuse to do this as I have asked God for many years now to take those images out of my mind and I refuse to put any other woman higher than my wife ever again. I do not care for myself; it is that she deserves to be fully satisfied. Should I not worry about it, let God take care of it, then deal with it once we are actually married if it becomes a problem, or is there any advice you can offer me? Would something like Viagra be an okay thing to use because, unlike a contraceptive, it is actually helping to create life?