Please don’t let your heart worry. The Catholic Church teaches the truth. Not only that, but it is the Catholic Church (with the guidance of the Holy Spirit), that put together the cannon of the Bible. Who better to know how to interpret the Bible, than the very church that God willed to put forth the Bible into all the world?
The worry from this issue in particular can have sad consequences. The worry about the unpardonable sin could cause one to focus on separation from the Lord, rather than uniting our hearts with Him.
There was a time when I was so terribly afraid that I had blasphemed the Holy Spirit, even when I didn’t know that blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is final unrepentance at death. For ten long years I grieved & troubled myself about this. At times I would become physically sick if I thought about it too much, & many nights I lay awake fretting. How foolish of me! I could have used all that energy to love the Lord with all my soul, with all my strength, with all my might. But I wasted my emotions, thoughts, & my rapid heartbeats on fear. At night as I lay my head upon my pillow, I could have thought beautiful thoughts of Jesus, & prayed beautiful prayers adoring Him, Who has brought us salvation.
I went to confession. I was so afraid, that I that I confessed several times. Every priest said I did not blaspheme, & I was absolved. Isn’t it true that the Holy Spirit guides the priest during this Holy sacrament? And it is true that when we are absolved, we are absolved.
Finally, a few years ago, I just reached out to Jesus (not that I hadn’t before ). My husband was on a business trip. I prayed to Jesus, & I told Him my fears, & how I never in my heart or with my will ever, ever blasphemed the Holy Spirit. Then I asked Him for a special favor. Maybe the Holy Spirit Himself prompted me to ask this extraordinary request… I asked our precious Lord to kindly give me a ring… not as a sign, but as a symbol that He still loves me, that I’m forgivable, that I’m still savable, & that He still wants me. Now, my husband hardly ever gives me jewelry (which is fine, give the money to the poor!). But in this prayer I specifically prayed that while my husband was on a business trip, that he would stop at a kiosk in the middle of the airport & buy a ring. If that happened I knew it would be from Our Lord, & I told Him I would no longer fear about the unpardonable sin. The only other rings that my husband had given me were my engagement & wedding ring. That’s all.
I didn’t tell a soul about my prayer. In fact, I nearly forgot all about it myself. A few days went by, & that Friday or Saturday my husband returned. “Oh,” he said, “I brought you a present”. In his hand was a small bag. In the bag were red & white tissues (:eek:). Inside the small box was a ring. Of all the perfect timing! A ring! It was silver, my favorite as I really do not like gold jewelry. The size was perfection. My husband told me that he selected a size five, which is what I normally wear, but even a size five is not a perfect fit for my small middle finger. The lady behind the counter measured the ring, & it measured at 4.75. I think the rings were not supposed to be in special sizes, but this one was. Get this though… the lady told my husband that the stone in the ring is “moonstone”. My husband was not aware that moonstone is my birthstone. He only knew that alexandrite & pearl were my birthstones. Not only is moonstone my birthstone, it is my favorite birthstone out of all three! The shape of the moonstone is in a teardrop shape. If anyone has interpretations as to the meaning of that, I would be delighted to hear them!
I put the ring on my finger. And then that night, I remembered my prayer from earlier that week. And it was then how I realized that it happened just as I prayed, & that it was perfect. Every time I look at His ring on my right hand, I am reminded of His love, salvation, & forgiveness.
It took a little while longer to completely stamp out all of the fear. I went to confession, & spoke to the priest about my fear that I might have committed the unpardonable sin. I explained things in detail, including my fears. Ever since that final confession, & the symbol of grace that the Lord gave to me, I have been 100% fear-free from this sin.
I wrote this gigantic post not to talk about the ring, but to use my experience of & example of how much Jesus loves us. He doesn’t want anyone to go to hell, & reaches to the furthest depths, even dying on the cross, to save us. He has not abandoned us, & He has given us the guidance of His Catholic Church, under instruction & wisdom of the Holy Spirit Himself, to teach us & lead us. Trust Him, & trust His Church… trust His Catholic Church when she says that that the unforgivable sin is final repentance. The Catholic Church receives the wisdom of the Holy Spirit. Have faith :).
Jesus loved little me enough to go out of the way to show his love & forgiveness to me. Don’t you think for a second that he wouldn’t reach to the depths of Hell or the ends of the earth for you; He loves you so very much. Go to confession if you haven’t already. Tell the priest your fear. Know that blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is final unrepentance, then thank God for your life & for the sacrament of confession. And when you are absolved & comforted, know that you are truly in a state of grace & that you have not committed blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.
Jesus loves you so much. If only we could comprehend the depth of his love, we would be more able to take Pope John Paul II’s word’s “Be not afraid” to heart.
Be at peace. Know that our Lord Jesus, loves you.
May God’s peace & joy rain down on you, & cleanse your spirit from all fear.
Take comfort in the one who saves you :).