We all will include you in our prayers.
A few ideas … whenever you are by yourself, keep your rosary in your hand. Say the Hail Mary’s and when the thought occurs to you, recall the mysteries … which ever ones come to you.
Sometimes, my favorite mystery is the Descent of the Holy Spirit.
Another idea is something called “pattern interruption”. Meaning: to do something different, however small or inconsequential when the depression and despair hit.
For example, … wave your arms around … march around the house while humming marching music. Silly dopey things.
Recall that silly dopey episode from “I Love Lucy” where she and Ethel were working at a candy packing factory and they couldn’t keep up with the conveyor belt and chocolates were going all over the place.
Make a list of silly dopey comic things that have tickled your “funny bone” in the past and then recall as many of them as possible.
Make a list of every accomplishment you have ever had … starting when you were a little kid, maybe chasing ducks in a park … and up through learning to tie your shoelaces and up to rolling or throwing a ball … maybe learning to ride a bike … “Montessori stuff” … you have a life time of accomplishments. Everyone is different, but everyone has them. Could be spiritual experiences long ago.
Think of some past experiences that you enjoyed and relive/ daydream them.
Think of some imaginary experiences that you enjoyed … maybe some adventure movie or some person you admire … maybe a sports figure … and relive their triumphs as if you were running the mile yourself. (Or whatever it was.)
Let yourself be inspired by … not necessarily the lives … but specific really neat experiences of others … insert yourself into those positive situations.