Warning rant to follow.
I hate asking for help and prayers all the time, but I have very few people IRL life that I can turn to.
I'm 28 years old and I am facing an entire lifetime filled with chronic pain, suffering, fatigue, and illness in mind and body. Nothing has a cure, nothing will ever go away (without a miracle!) I just don't know how I'm going to get through 50/60 more years of this. :( I'm only a third of the way through and I've been through more than most people twice my age! I have nothing to look forward too in life, only more of the same and it ain't fun. :nope: I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm tired of suffering, tired of sickness, tired of pain, tired of being lonely, tired being bored out of my mind, tired of being the crazy mentally ill lady, the jokes, the looks, the isolation. Tired of people saying that I don't "look" sick, and judging me as being a lazy healthy person. Tired of being infertile. Tired of being the bad "contracepting" catholic. :rolleyes: Tired of being "not normal".
I just want a normalish life. I know there isn't a perfect life, but like my Psychiatrist says, I was dealt a bad hand of cards. I just want to do what most people my age do. Work, volunteer, have children, be able to be in social settings without fear. Being able to do more than a few things a day without feeling completely exhausted. Being able to not have to take 12 + medicines a day. Being able to do things for extended periods, things outside the home without having to leave, in general just living daily life for a 28 year old woman. Normalcy.
Please pray for me. All I can do anymore is beg others for prayers. Yes, I'm bratty, spoiled, selfish, needy, whinny, complaining, desperate whatever you want to call me I probably am. I've heard it all. I just need continued prayers to help me through this. Please find it in your heart to keep praying for me.