I'm just hoping to hear from others about their thoughts on the following:
I'm a 25-year-old female and have always believed and desired marriage to be my vocation.
I'm drawn to it for many reasons - #1 I can't think of a better way to spend my life than loving and sacrificing myself for a husband and children. Raising children in the faith and helping my spouse grow in virtue would be a great blessing, not to mention sharing my life with others. I love kids and would rather be a humble stay at home mom than a successful career woman. My picture of success is having a large Catholic family, that sticks together and supports each other in hard times and in good times.
The Catholic family seems like a more and more rare thing in today's world but it's so foundational to our society, culture and lives. Both sides of my family have Catholic roots, but, to date, divorces and vices including alcoholism have led to a split and loss of faith. These divorces have long lasting, generational affects, even on my parents lives. #2 I think one of the greatest gifts I could give my parents, that which would also bring them much happiness, is marrying and having grandchildren for them to enjoy. I could offer them the family that they never had.
So in addition, I would be proud and driven to be the one person in my family to marry a Catholic man and form a Catholic family with him, and let the family grow with as many children as God blesses us with. #3 Lastly, I believe I have skills that mesh with being a wife and mother.
However, what if these desires and thoughts are not in tune with what God has planned for me? Surely he wouldn't give me these desires if he didn't intend marriage for me, right?
But I've found it hard to meet other like-minded Catholic men, much less Catholic men at all. I'm already 25, and many people are already married or getting married. The pool of available men is shrinking! ha. My only real and longest relationship was about 11 months and I thought I could marry this guy but the circumstances were not in our favor.
I've joined Catholic groups and try to be as active as possible in my church, in order to meet friends and possibly date. I try to pray about it often and visit the blessed sacrament to seek help in my vocation.
Could my belief that my vocation for marriage be rather something that our modern society put into my head? All the romantic songs, and chick flicks make me think this is for me but in fact, marriage is not what God planned?
I recently had a nun ask me what I'm doing with my life (she found out I wasn't married) and she invited me to a meeting at her convent (I didn't go) Is this how God could be communicating his plan for me?
How can I know for sure?
(sorry that was so long winded!)